So for those watching my BevRants channel, you may have seen that i've been having a hard time of late....
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In short, it's been an awful time for me. While i thought my brain and body would be strong enough that maybe i'd cry a few times and all that, but i wasn't ready for the inability to leave my home. I wasn't ready to be sleeping all day and seemingly unable to reset my body clock. I wasn't ready to cut off my family, friends, loved ones....
In this current mindset i often find myself having thoughts that i am alone, unloved and unable to function through life much longer... and yes, that does mean thoughts of ending my life. In reality i am very lucky that i do have an amazing support network of people around me who mean the absolute world to me, because i only have to put one status on facebook and my phone won't stop ringing with people wanting to know i'm ok and asking "what can we do to help you?".
It's a lovely thing to have and i know i am a lucky person to have such a support in my life, some people really don't have it.
That said, what can be learned? What can i tell others to do to help themselves get out of my type of mindset?
Well, firstly, accept you feel the way that you do. Accepting how you feel isn't admitting defeat at all, it's the first step to getting yourself better again. Look at what your mood is like, what your food is like, are you as close to your friends and/or family as you were? What can you do to throw that olive branch out there to get some support?
Next is to distract yourself. Write, it really does help to calm your thoughts down when your head is spinning with thoughts. Watch a video on a topic you have never even thought about before. Like, recently i've relied a lot on the likes of Shammi ...
And Jackson...
Who are able to put a smile on my face, and smiling really does help, even if it's only an internal smile.
Move around all you can, go and sit in a different room for a bit, even if you're stuck watching your phone or whatever, the difference can help you to boost your mood.
Find tips on self-help, never KNOW that you're lonely because you aren't. Feeling lonely is different to actually being lonely. There's always a charity phone number you can get hold of and you can call for a talk.
Eventually you will find yourself able to get back to normal, if only for a day or two, make the most of it when that happens because life is tough for us all at times. Treat yourself often and learn some self-love.
